Fallout, Daddy Abandonment Issues and personal growth through RPG
Posted: Mon 14 Apr 2025, 08:55
Me being me, I have made a lot of changes to Fallout, fixing some WTF's and adapting it to my personal GM style. One of the biggest changes is adding the Kezia character (Captain Dagny's daughter). I got this from my research, which led me to @ArthurDallas old play report. Dunno if that was an ArthurDallas original, but that character is IMO an EXCELLENT addition. For a lot of reasons.
In my version, the Kezia character is not resentful of her dad, but looking to prove herself to him. And to everyone else around her. She has had time to try to get over her mother's death. When her Dad finally shows up to take custody (like he promised he would!), Kezia doesn't see this as an opportunity to grind her axe against him in resentment of his long absence, but as an opportunity to leave her grief behind. To start again. To leave everything in her life that has been bad, in the rear view mirror.
The key characteristic of my Kezia is BOLD. She might be new to Space, but now that she is here, she wants you to know that she is here. She's got this. You old spacetimers are gonna be AMAZED at how fast she learns this shit.
In my mind, it is entirely possible that what Kezia is doing here, is not 100% healthy from a psychotherapy perspective. She is totally embracing this new adventure into space with a newly reunited Dad. She has probably exaggerated in her mind that this 'fresh start' will solve all her problems and that she will never ever EVERY need to look back again. But, that is what she is doing.
Along the way, of all my obsessive noodling over this character, I have noticed that some of this energy I am putting into this Kezia character, is reflective of my own shit that I am going through at this time. I have stopped myself from writing another 500 words about what this Kezia character and I have in common. I will just ask you to take it on faith that I have found a new expression of some of my deepest unheard feelings, just by trying to breathe life into this fictional figment of a person. Kezia is feeling a surge of empowerment in a new environ. A feeling that is as of yet, unearned and untested by the force of reality.
OK, that is deep enough. I choose to stop typing now. Selah.
PS: I did run Fallout for 3 players tonight. For one of them, it was their first RPG experience ever. I gave her Kezia as a character. She had an absolute blast. Final Girl and sole survivor like a Boss (although I think she might have some regrets about leaving her facehugged daddy behind). More therapy sessions in her future LOL!
In my version, the Kezia character is not resentful of her dad, but looking to prove herself to him. And to everyone else around her. She has had time to try to get over her mother's death. When her Dad finally shows up to take custody (like he promised he would!), Kezia doesn't see this as an opportunity to grind her axe against him in resentment of his long absence, but as an opportunity to leave her grief behind. To start again. To leave everything in her life that has been bad, in the rear view mirror.
The key characteristic of my Kezia is BOLD. She might be new to Space, but now that she is here, she wants you to know that she is here. She's got this. You old spacetimers are gonna be AMAZED at how fast she learns this shit.
In my mind, it is entirely possible that what Kezia is doing here, is not 100% healthy from a psychotherapy perspective. She is totally embracing this new adventure into space with a newly reunited Dad. She has probably exaggerated in her mind that this 'fresh start' will solve all her problems and that she will never ever EVERY need to look back again. But, that is what she is doing.
Along the way, of all my obsessive noodling over this character, I have noticed that some of this energy I am putting into this Kezia character, is reflective of my own shit that I am going through at this time. I have stopped myself from writing another 500 words about what this Kezia character and I have in common. I will just ask you to take it on faith that I have found a new expression of some of my deepest unheard feelings, just by trying to breathe life into this fictional figment of a person. Kezia is feeling a surge of empowerment in a new environ. A feeling that is as of yet, unearned and untested by the force of reality.
OK, that is deep enough. I choose to stop typing now. Selah.
PS: I did run Fallout for 3 players tonight. For one of them, it was their first RPG experience ever. I gave her Kezia as a character. She had an absolute blast. Final Girl and sole survivor like a Boss (although I think she might have some regrets about leaving her facehugged daddy behind). More therapy sessions in her future LOL!